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ambivalence

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the blueness above us had never seemed so lucid. not in past days, when crooked and nostalgic thoughts crafted storms in the mirrors of our souls. it’s been seven nights since we soothed our sorrows, while intoxicating our daydreams in a cup of midnight wonders. what exquisite medicine do the stars possess? we couldn’t tell. but its warm perfume of promises has awakened all the senses in us

and in chapter 5 rosé and seoyul fell in love

Seoyul looked at Rosé silently for a moment. it was more than clear that Rosé was also in the limbo of platonic and romantic feelings towards Seoyul. It was a middle ground between the two. They are far too comfortable with each other and love each other too much to be simple friends. "No. Of course you don't. But still, you're lying to yourself if you say it's just platonic for you. We have something...ambivalent. Neither. Somehow I like that," Seoyul said honestly and forcefully as she put the glass of wine in Rosé's hand. Rosé immediately took a sip. She was stressed about Seoyul. "This has to end, okay. I don't want to get caught. I'm going to get married someday, probably to a rich guy. Will have one or two kids. You're the best friend, ok?" Seoyul grinned when she saw Rosé's face. It was almost pleading, if not panicked. And when Rosé saw her smile, her face changed to a much sterner one. "Don't worry," Seoyul said, also taking a sip, "I will never kiss you again, never sleep with you again, never touch you again in that way i used to. But you and I we will always remember. The looks will be there. A forbidden desire." Seoyul spoke the last sentence as if she were part of a play. Theatrically and perfectly dramatically acted.

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you held me in your arms so close that i could hear your steady heartbeat. “you are my true muse”, you said and in that whisper, i heard the roar of a thousand promises. so keep me as your midnight muse and let me stay in your heart forever

박  채영    park chaeyoung

seo yulha    서   율하

i know my existence is temporary and so is yours. and as much as you love dancing stars, they don’t last forever. I don’t mind being temporary as long as i am temporary with you. i would paint a hundred more stars in the sky, if it meant you never burn out

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